Daydreaming

Isaac Josiah.

That name is the most musical sound to me in the same way that his picture shows me the most adorable little boy I have EVER seen. Already, I am so biased.

I daydream about this little boy. The other day I was walking through Sam's Club and the world was completely shut out as I started imagining meeting him for the first time. First, I imagined squatting down  in front of him and telling him  that I was his Mama. I imagined a hesitant reaction as he slowly warms up to us and gives us a shy smile.  Then, I imagined him bursting into the room and running to us because he recognized us from the picture book we sent him. He jumps into my arms, so excited to be going home. We hug tightly as if to make up for all the hugs we've missed over the last few years.

And then I burst into tears. In Sam's Club. And the sights and soundtrack of the real world came rushing back into focus as I tried to quickly wipe away the tears streaming down my face.

This is just the beginning of mother-love, I think.  And I just can't wait for more!